"But everybody's changing....

......and I don't feel the same"

Keane - Everybody's Changing

You say you wander your own land
But when I think about it
I don't see how you can

You're aching, you're breaking
And I can see the pain in your eyes
Says everybody's changing
And I don't know why

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same

You're gone from here
Soon you will disappear
Fading into beautiful light
'Cause everybody's changing
And I don't feel right

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same

Oh
Everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same

Welcome spring semester..

Spring semester will officially start tomorrow. Bila pikir balik, memang cepat betul masa berlalu. Winter break 4 minggu rasa macam 4 hari. Tapi winter break kali ni aku happy sebab tak ada the "guilt" feeling of wasting my time doing nothing. I did my study preparation for FM exam this upcoming February. I cooked delicious dished that I'd been craving to die before this. (Cuma satu cubaan membuat apam balik yang tak menjadi). I finished the marathon of watching my favorite series. I sticked to my workout plan and I wished I'll still continue with it through this spring semester. I gained some weights, thanks to do the continuous hunger and eating habit during cold weather (Yep, for me, topping up some pounds is a good news). So basically, I can say I start this new semester with great feeling of accomplishment.

Besides, aku memang suka spring semester for certain reasons. Firstly, even though it still cold in the beginning of the semester (January through March), at the end, the harshness of the cold will become milder as the season is approaching spring and eventually summer. So, you'll have this kind of excitement because you know at the end it is all about SUNSHINE. You can wear short and tees instead of bundling up with 2 to 3 layers of clothings and heavy winter jacket; you can wear flip-flop instead of boot, you can put on your stylish shades, you can put on your summer cap instead of winter hat. Yes, you can be more fashionable and at the same time comfy. To sum up the feeling....it is just so AIRYYYY.

Beside the sunshine,  at the end of the spring semester, I know I will go back to M'sia for summer break, enjoying sweet time with family, and vacation trip with friends. Andddd...full puasa and raya in M'sia. *yayyy*

Phuket 2010

Chiang Mai 2010

So this kinda feeling memang menjadi motivator untuk pergi ke kelas throughout the whole semester. Bila semangat pergi ke kelas, baru la ada semangat nak terima ilmu yg cikgu dok ajar kat depan. Then, baru la ada semangat nak study, then baru la result exam menjadi gempak. Aku rasa aku ada tulis dalam blog ni pasal my spring result which has always been better than the fall's. 

Finally, the coincidence of Spring semester that begins in January makes a perfect timing to accomplish the new year resolutions that I have set recently. Yes, I feel great to start this semester and this year 2011. And I already feel the positive aura reverberating here and forth. Let's rock it babeh!!!

p/s: With the new spirit and optimism for the future, I uploaded this song for you all....Enjoy!!

Coldplay: Glass of Water

Scared of losing all the time
He wrote it in a letter
He was a friend of mine

He heard you could see your future
Inside a glass of water
The ripples and the lines
And he asked
Would I see heaven in mine?

That is just the way it was
Nothing could be better
And nothing ever was

Oh they say you can see your future
Inside a glass of water
The riddles and the rhymes
Will I see heaven in mine?
Oh Oh Oh Oh I

Son, don't ask
Neither half full or empty is the glass
Cling to the mast
Spend your whole life living in the past
Going nowhere fast

So he wrote it on a wall
The hollowest of halos
Is no halo at all
Televisions selling plastic figurines of leaders
Saying nothing at all
And you chime
Stars in heaven align
Ohhh I

Son, don't ask
Neither half full or empty is the glass
Cling to the mast
Spend your whole life living in the past
Going nowhere fast

What are we drinking when we’re done?
Glasses of water

It is indeed a risk

There's only one thing I am fear the most when living far away from my beloved one. Or more precisely the risk I'm bearing when studying oversea, being distanced miles apart from your family. Yep, benda yang aku dok risau semenjak mula2 sampai sini dulu; the risk of losing your family members at the same time you are not by their side, or worst not having chance to look at them before the burial. Nauzubillah..aku mintak sangat benda2 macam ni tak terjadi kat aku. I am worried I'll might be not strong enough to face such a big blow.

To let you know, syukur alhamdulillah aku tak pernah lagi diuji kehilangan orang2 yang aku sayang (I mean family members). Atuk dengan opah sebelah masih ada. Nenek sebelah abah pon panjang umur lagi. Cuma arwah tok Amir yang dah meninggal sebelum aku lahir lagi. Jadi tak terasa sangat pemergian arwah Tok. Tapi itu tak kira lagi bencana atau musibah yang boleh terjadi on the spot macam eksiden ke, mati lemas pergi berkelah ke, atau apa2 jer la. Banyak cara Allah boleh tarik nyawa manusia.

So, bila baru-baru ni dapat news atuk sebelah mak masuk wad sebab paru2 berair sampai kaki dia bengkak memang membuatkan diri ni terkelu jap. Walaupun keadaan dia sekarang dah stabil dan dibenarkan pulang, aku tetap terfikir perkara yang buruk2 saja. Sebab ni bukan kali pertama atuk masuk wad.

Since I left for the State in 2008, dah 3 kali atuk masuk hospital. Raya sebelum tu pon atuk masuk hospital sebab jatuh motor sampai kaki kena masuk besi. Nyawa dia memang panjang sebab tak ada kenderaan lain yang lalu masa dia terjatuh atas jalan raya. Setahun lepas tu dia jatuh motor lagi sebab terlanggar lembu lintas jalan. Nasib baik perut lembu yang dilanggar. So, impact perlanggaran tu tak kuat sangat. Dibuatnya langgar kepala lembu yg keras bertanduk tu? But still, cedera satu badan juga. And since the accidents, badan dia memang dah tak kuat sangat. Tambah pulak dia ada darah tinggi. Jadi, memang senang kena serang sakit2.

Atuk aku ni boleh dikategori agak "degil" sikit. Suruh rehat aja kat rumah. dikatanya bosan. Dia jenis tak boleh duduk diam (I guess semua orang tua macam tu kot). So, apa dia buat? Dia ulang-alik ambil dan bawak perkerja kolam ternak udang galah dari stesen bas ke kolam udang. Kiranya macam teksi la tapi guna motor. Sebabnya, nak masuk jalan bendang tu sempit sikit jadi kereta tak boleh masuk. Atuk aku cakap dia memang buat duit jugak la hantar orang ni, tambah pulak mesti dapat udang galah percuma perkerja2 tu bagi at least seminggu sekali.

Tapi yang semua keluarga dan saudara2 aku risaukan adalah cara atuk bawak motor..Ya ampun lajunya.. boleh mengalahkan mat2 rempit satu Malaya. Tu la sebab bila lembu lintas jalan pon sampai tak sempat nak brek. Dah puas semua pakcik2 makcik dan mak ayah aku nasihat bawak motor perlahan2. Tapi rasa2nya masuk kanan keluar kiri juga. Aku pernah sekali bonceng atuk aku naik motor. Pastu, terus serik nak bonceng lagi sebab rasa mcam naik roller coster. Bila dia kona lipat tu, rasa2 nya lutut ni nak terkena jalan raya dah. Huishh,,,sungguh berani ini orang tua. Aku rasa kadang2 orang berusia ni bukan apa..dia nak buktikan yg dia ni masih sihat, cergas, dan berjiwa muda. Memang tak salah, tapi jangan la sampai membahayakan nyawa. Anak-anak dan cucu-cucu semua risau.

Jadi, dalam aku rasa risau sebab atuk aku kena sakit itu sakit ini, aku sedikit lega sebab dia dah tak keluar sangat. I guess mungkin itu lah hikmah dia. Sekurang-kurang nya dia ada di rumah dan tak membahayakan diri bawak motor laju2. But still, I am praying for his recovery, good health, and long life.

Kalau apa2 benda nak terjadi pon, biar lah aku ada kat Malaysia. Amin..